Today is the last day of 2022 and I wanted to note some major accomplishments. These achieved goals wouldn't have happened without some downfalls, so I'll list those, too.
Downfalls/Mistakes/Failures
- I have been searching for another job since May. I have been ignored, immediately rejected, or not chosen after an interview after applying to many jobs. This has made me more aware of the fact that I would not like to contribute to a company by climbing up the corporate ladder. I would rather do something that is good for my mental health. Ideally, I would live in the mountains next to a little stream and grow vegetables.
- I've been working on healing the child in me to change how I react to things. This is a positive thing and probably should be in the positive section, but the unlearning of some habits made me feel like there was no way to fix it. This makes sense, because you have no idea how to fix a situation because you're so used to doing it this one specific way. It made me feel confused and dumb, because I didn't know how to react in the correct way.
- I've been against going to therapy for so long because I knew what the therapist would say, so there was no point in it. I did 2 therapy sessions virtually with a really awesome therapist, but I can't seem to want to keep doing it. I already know my past, what happened to me, how I can learn from it, and what I can do to make myself better. And I want to be able to see a therapist and be happy about it rather than seeing it as a chore. I'm not quite there yet.
- Last but not least, I've noticed the amount that social media has affected me. I hate politics, and the amount of political comments on non-political posts is making me more angry. The lack of critical thinking in person and online is making me more negative as a person. But that's the thing with political people, no amount of facts or reports will get them to change their mind. There are more people with narcissistic tendencies popping up in my life and I can see right through them. I truly care about people, but they're getting caught up in worldly things. This is a topic I want to write about later, but it will be a long one.
Accomplishments/Achievements/Yes
- This is the first year where I have stayed at a full time job for the whole year. All of my last jobs were either seasonal or part-time, so this is a big thing for me.
- I'm financially well off and don't fear not being able to make a payment. I stayed home for a year after college to save up for my apartment and a new car, and still have money to pay for things. I also started a savings account recently, which I am proud of.
- I moved out, woo! I got an apartment in August in downtown Richmond at a great price, and now I live with my boyfriend. We are loving it here and everything is going great.
- I've gained weight and feel awesome, besides the gut issues I have (which are getting fixed). I've started doing pilates back in May or June I believe, and recently calmed down with doing them, but I'm walking a lot more in Richmond.
- I'm pretty positively sure I have POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) and the small amounts of exercise are helping with my breathing. POTS is disease where my blood really sucks with circulating through my body, thus making me faint (throwback to the many years of my childhood where I would faint all the time). The rapid heart rate I get is so high even when I'm resting. I also will make an article about POTS because it has affected me my whole life and it needs to be talked about more. I'm learning about POTS and changing my daily habits and have barely fainted for awhile.
There are more things that I could list, but they coincide with the goals I have for 2023. I don't share any of my goals for the coming year, but I do write them down and have them on the fridge. It's the subtle reminder and push I need to at least try, even if I don't achieve them all the way. The simple act of crossing it off the list really makes me happy and ready to accomplish more.
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